I forgive, but I still hurt

Colossians  3:13 Be tolerant with one another and forgive one another whenever any of you has a complaint against someone else. You must forgive one another just as the Lord has forgiven you. 

Forgiveness is a commandment in the Bible, and it´s a choice. As believers, we know we must forgive those who have hurt and wronged us, but to be honest it can be difficult.

We know we are to forgive because we have been forgiven, and it´s supposed to bring healing to us, but I still felt pain.

But what happens when we forgive, and still feel that sting in our hearts, like we need to do it again?  I have been there, forgiving the same person year after year because I felt I have not forgiven him. Every time his name surfaced, I felt anger and pain, and my cycle of forgiveness would start all over again.  

I often thought to myself, If I forgave, why do I feel I need to do it again? What I later realized is that I needed inner healing for these painful feelings to go away, because my hurt was not healed.

I did the following steps listed below, and this took away the pain and feeling of unforgiveness. You don´t need a professional for inner healing, you can do this on your own, and it does not take very long.

Pray. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you and for Jesus to be present.

Go back to the event, feel it and see Jesus in the midst. Ask the Lord what emotions have not been healed from that particular event. Write down the hurt/damaged emotions. Take your time, don´t rush. You may receive more that one emotion.

Ask Jesus to heal the wound in your soul that was caused by the negative emotion, and let Jesus move freely during the event.  If it is a traumatic event, you don´t want to relive it. Just go to the end of the event.

Tell the Lord you receive His healing and ¨see¨  Him healing you.  For me, he was pouring the balm of Gilead on the wound of betrayal, it was powerful!

Next, forgive the person who caused the pain.
Bring the memory back again to your mind, don’t just think about it, feel it and see Jesus.  If there are no emotions coming to the surface, you are free.

Now ask the Lord the show you the truth about this event.  For me, when this certain event happened in my life the Lord showed me a deep frustration this person had at the time, and I just happened to be in the crossway of his fury at the moment.

My emotion was betrayal, and I asked the Lord to replace it, and he did with goodness.

I brought the memory again to check if there were any other emotions that had not been healed, and repeat the process if there are.

After doing this exercise, I finally felt that yes, I have forgiven this person and the hurt was gone. I knew this because I brought the memory up, and had no emotion.

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Be blessed.

How to see in the spirit exercise

In my last post regarding Seeing in the Spirit,  I shared my journey into something new and the beginning steps to achieve this goal.

Today I would like to share with you an exercise these books suggest you do to increase your capacity to “see” in the spiritual realm.  If you have not yet purchased these books, I encourage you to do so.

 

One of these exercises to seeing in the spirit is the following: I am to sit or lie down in a darkened room that has some light present, but not much. This exercise works well for me in the mornings, as the sunlight is starting to shine through the blinds in our bedroom.  Where I live sunrise is 5:30 a.m, every morning, every day, all year round.

In this exercise, I am to “look” at the empty space between me and the ceiling, or a far wall for ten minutes, and try to detect any images that appear and make note of them. I am not to dismiss “my eyes playing tricks on me” but pay attention to what I am seeing.  When I do this, I look intently, asking God to open my spiritual eyes so that I can “see.”

As I began doing this exercise, I saw a swirling white object move in the room and it seemed to go from side to side. I also saw something quite strange, and the only way I can explain it, its shape was a volume bar, white in color and it was going from side to side as well.

The next part of this exercise is to ask the Lord what I saw and make a note of it in my journal.

In journaling,  the Lord said the following:  ” What I saw was an Angel called Lapidus, and Lapidus brings joy and peace. The music bar-shaped was another Angel, and this Angel was giving God glory, praise and honor, and exalting his name.  He was dancing, praising God.”

I looked up the meaning of Lapidus, and it means made of stone, pleasant or charming.

We have had our praise music on more than normal since I began doing these exercises, and it has made a difference in our household atmosphere. I sense more peace and joy.

I am encouraged as I began “seeing in the spirit.”  I still have much to learn and grow.  I am seeing dimly for now, but I have faith as I continue these training exercises it will become clearer as I press forward.

I continue to repeat these exercises.  Sometimes I see something new, other times I see the same Angel swirling around.  It is quite fun, to say the least!

I will be sharing another exercise and its results in my next post.

How to see in the Spirit

Do you ever find yourself desiring to learn something new, and when you find it you delve right into it?  Recently I have been reading books as to how to see in the spirit.

These are:

• How to See in the Spirit by Michael Van Vlymen
• Powerful Keys to Spiritual Sight by the same author
• Seeing in the Spirit made Simple by Praying Medic

You could say the Lord has placed it upon my heart to study this.     As a young child before Christ, I had the ability to see in the spiritual realm, but what I would see were not always nice or pretty. 

Once I became a believer in Christ, my seeing in the spirit was not as active, and I was relieved.   Instead, I became aware of my surroundings,  but not always. 

There were times where I knew if something was off, or if someone was of the Lord.  Some people would call these types of people feelers.   I understand now it is the gift of discerning of spirits the Lord has given me.

Recently, my interest has peaked to be able to see in the spirit more accurately and frequently. I can sense, discern, and when I pray visions are common, but I wanted more.  

These books have helped me, and I would like to share a few nuggets with you that may help you see in the spiritual realm.  If you are truly interested, these books and others  are available at Amazon. 

Repent of any sins.  Yes, we all sin. Confession and repentance is a good thing.  Admiting something you did wrong does a lot for you. 

Intimacy with Christ is important and staying close to Him. Read the Bible, journal and pray.  I have journaled for years, so this was very easy for me.  It is in my journal where I can truly be myself and share my heart with Him in my notebook. I also have times of gratitude, praise, petitions, joy and sadness. Here I am real. 

Pray for others.  I purposely joined my church´s prayer chain years ago when I noticed that all my prayer request were for myself and my own family needs.  I realized that I was becoming selfish, and this is not right. I joined the prayer chain to move my focus from me to others.  I have always enjoyed prayer and praying for others, but I went out of my way to see whom I could pray for.  We receive our prayer chain in the mornings, and often times there are certain prayer request that I pray for throughout the day. 

Listen to praise music, as often as you can.   I am the type of person when reading or working, I need complete silence.  My husband, on the other hand, works best with music on.  To make matters worse, the spare bedroom in the house functions as our shared office.   So what we now do,  is having praise music on our Smart T.V. as soon as we wake up, and this has helped with the spiritual atmosphere in the home.

Fast and pray in the spirit.  We have a habit of fasting the beginning of the year, but this is an area where the Lord is telling me that I need to fast more, not just at the start of the year.  This type of fasting could be a meal, or one day a week.  Instead of cooking, eating and cleaning the kitchen I would use that time to pray and read the Bible.

On my next post, I will be sharing an exercise listed in these books and how it went for me.

5 ways to increase your prayer life

Have you ever been at a loss for words when in a prayer group or ministry time and felt intimidated by those around you, especially the way they prayed and spoke over someone?    My idea was, they prayed everything and so well and so eloquently, I possibly could not add to it.  So therefore, I would not pray.

The Bible says some of the  Apostles were unlearned men.  But, they were with Jesus and spent time with him and learned to speak like Jesus.

Acts 4:13 The members of the council were amazed when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, for they could see that they were ordinary men with no special training in the Scriptures. They also recognized them as men who had been with Jesus.

Imagine speaking like Jesus!  Do you think this is available for us today?  I do.

So how did I learn to pray and not feel ashamed about saying what was on my heart?

Here are five steps that I learned along the way that can be of some benefit to you.

a)  I listened to the way others prayed. I paid attention to their prayers and the words they used.  I was especially impressed with how they were able to incorporate scripture when praying over someone.

b) Learn to hear the voice of God.  There are many wonderful books on how to hear the voice of God.  Just to mention a few authors:  Shawn Bolz, Mark Virkler. Don´t just read the books, apply the principles taught in them.  When you do, you will be pleasantly surprised.

c) Spend time in prayer and meditation of the word.  God invented meditation, and it is something we are to do. It is simply repeating the scripture over and over.  Writing down the verse will help you memorize it, and chew on each word.

d) Journal.  Where would I be without my journal, I write everything down.  In my prayer times, I express my gratitude, my love, my frustrations and prayer request.  While journaling, don´t forget to listen and write down what you hear God saying back to you.  Develop two-way communication.  It is available to you and within reach.

e) Practice, step out in faith. There comes a time where you have to take the plunge and step out in faith.  You will be surprised as you yield to the Holy Spirit, He will guide and lead you.  Don´t worry if you make a few mistakes, we all have to start somewhere.  The idea is to get going, and before you know it, your will have a flavored prayer life.

Start praying those awesome prayers inside of you.  As you do, the receiver is blessed, and so are you.

What other ways have you learned about developing a prayer life?  I would love to hear about in the comments.

 

Steal, kill and destroy

In a recent ministry session, I was praying for a business owner. His business was not performing well, and this man felt as though he was failing as a provider for his family.

In the session, it was revealed there were demons inside and outside of his place of business causing havoc.

 

He would give his potential clients the address, and for some odd reason, these clients had trouble locating his business. They simply could not find it.

Demons are very clever at hiding a place of business or church by cloaking it, to make it invisible so it cannot be found. They even had his business sign cloaked.

As there were very little clients, this was causing stress on his marriage, and he was not providing as he would have liked for his family.

When one receives any type of ministry, I have found the place of business, church, and home are often overlooked. These places also need to be cleansed, inside and out.

The demons outside and inside the place of business for my client were whispering lies to the potential clients to not make any purchases .

In the session, the demons were removed and I have faith that his sales will increase.

Removing demons is very simple. I simply asked the Angels of the Lord to remove the demons inside and outside of the building and to escort them to the Throne of God for His righteous judgment.

Saying the prayer this way, we allow the Lord to judge the demons, and not us. I like that much better.

The enemy has a very short job description.

By hindering clients  in the business, they were trying to steal his income,which in turn would cause stress on the marriage. These guys were doing a pretty good job in fulfilling their job description.

The enemy was found stealing, and he has to restore seven fold everything stolen from my client.

The best part of this session, my client’s business will improve, he will be able to provide for his family as he would like, and his marriage will be back on track.

Jesus receives all the glory.

Have you overlooked your home, church or place of business while in prayer? If so, it’s not too late to ask the Lord to cleanse it.